One of the hardest feelings to overcome when you’re traumatized in love is when you constatly feel like questioning your worth— asking yourself where did you mess up this time, why you’re not enough, and what’s wrong about you. You go to bed at night asking yourself, “Am I hard to love?” or you’ll suddenly wake-up at 3am and tear apart because you’re asking yourself again if you ever deserve the heartbreaks that you’ve been enduring all alone.
It’s sad how you loved someone with everything you have without knowing that you’ll end up devastated. It’s sad how you trusted someone not to hurt you but end up regretting it. There are always questions in your head, and somehow, you’ll never find answers for it. The pain is always there, it never goes away no matter how hard you try to escape from it. The fear is never ending, you’re very familiar with the pain and you’re scared to encounter it over and over again.
Being traumatized is not easy, it makes you feel miserable every time you remember everything that made you suffer. But do you know what’s harder than remembering? It’s spending your whole life believing that you’re not enough.